50 over 50 2022 Edition

At 50, I decided Fuck it…. Didn’t care as much for what people thought, trying to love the real me, not the one I put out for everyone.  Didn’t need to be the perfect wife, mom, volunteer helper

To slow her roll! Take the time to travel, do try new things, live on your own.  I went from college, to back home to marriage. It was what expected for me and I wish I had done more things more for me, not because I was supposed to do them.

A person who likes to make others feel comfortable and to laugh but is yet so very insecure and in need of love

Italian  family. Very matricial. Always expected to do certain things a certain way, rebelling is not looked upon as a good thing. I have tried to break that all with my kids and let them be themselves but it can be hard. I was brought up to support my husband and family first and then make time for me

My weight and how I feel about it.  I see all these love your self and your body things but I still can’t get over the little voice in my head telling me I’m fat and not trendy or cool so how can people really enjoy being with me. I am extremely good at people seeing one side of me but not the sad, lonely doubting person I truly can be..

Doing this project! The first time around I thought hmmm maybe but then talked my self out of it. I went to the exhibit and was amazed at all these women of different  t shapes and sizes were confident enough to take those chances. The second time I kept putting it off and saying “when I lose weight “ or “when I am tan” I always had a excuse. My dad died in  November and he never got to do so many things he wanted. His death made me realize I need to do this.  I will never be thin enough or tan enough, I just have to sit down and do it!

My family of course but my true loves are traveling, reading and watching British crime shows! Even if I am just planning a trip, it makes me happy to see all the possibilities that are out there.  Those are my three escape mechanisms that keep me calm and help me deal with the day to day life.

When I was pregnant with RJ, the family was on the show “A Baby Story” which was a great way to remember my time with him.  I also love theater and will break out into broadway songs quite spontaneously!